Sunday, June 29, 2003

Fuck you, du Maurier
I bought my first weeks supply of Nicoderm today. Let the cigarette jihad begin! June 23rd, 2002 was the day I started smoking again after 6 glorious months of freedom. June 22nd 2003 will be the end. 364 days. During my 6 month oxygen binge, I always said to myself "if I ever start smoking again, I don't know if I could go through quitting again." Well I will. I tried a few times to quit without the patch in the past year, because I argued that it was "important" to prove I had control over my mind. Well I don't care to prove that anymore because evidently I don't have control. But I have better weapons now.